For when it all seems…impossible.
Some days, I wonder: God, how is this even possible? Is it even possible? I don’t believe things will ever change.
In this last year, God has done some tremendous work in my life in ways that I didn’t see coming. He’s taken a hold of my heart and transformed it into something that, if I went back to who I was a few years ago, I wouldn’t recognize. And to my pleasant surprise, He’s showed me that He does in fact care about all areas of my life.
In those places where it gets harder to trust Him – yeah, He especially cares about those.
A few weeks ago, I went through a workbook created by Debra Fileta, creator and author of the TrueLoveDates blog. It was entitled the 21-Day Jumpstart Your Love Life Challenge. I decided with a little – okay, a lot of skepticism, to try it out. Throughout the workbook, I learned some valuable lessons about what a godly relationship should look like and what, as a woman of God, I should be looking for in terms of a godly man.
Let me just fill you in real quick…
In terms of dating, I am a complete newbie and was coming at this from a – what some would say – fresh perspective. Never having been in a relationship, let alone ever having been on more than 4 or 5 dates in my twenty-four years of life, I am seriously a beginner. Part of the reason for this (that I’ve discovered through some individual counseling/therapy and time spent with the Lord) is one simple fact: I don’t find it easy to create or maintain genuine relationships with the opposite sex. I’m continuing to work on this area of my life, and to be honest, it hasn’t been an easy process. But God has been ever faithful and patient, filled with understanding as He knows my deep desire to one day be married and have a family.
The book is structured so that each day, you go through a new lesson: Day 1, Day 2…you get the picture. Well, on a rainy Tuesday evening, I found myself sitting on my bed struggling with Day 9 of this workbook. The instructions asked me to think of some new things that I could do to, in essence, “get out there more” and do something where I could potentially meet guys who were likeminded and relatable. And for the next two days, I still hadn’t completed it. In fact, I didn’t move past it and couldn’t bring myself to go to Day 10.
And here’s what I think is the reason why:
I think the reason I couldn’t bring myself to complete Day 9 was that I simply didn’t see any possible ways to meet new people. Last year, I tried so many ways to put myself out there to meet new friends and, to be real, a potential someone – but they all ended the same way: me feeling like I still couldn’t connect to brothers in Christ and that I would have to accept that fact that I was just incompetent at making guy friends. And as I sat on my bed Tuesday night, I had that same hopeless feeling as I went into the day’s lesson.
So instead, I just didn’t do it.
The next morning on my way to work, I cried. I cried out to the Lord and told Him exactly what I’d been feeling about this pesky Day 9 lesson and how it just seemed impossible. I had no prospects, no way to go about making friends with guys – better yet, no clue how I would even start to try. How would I ever find godly men to befriend, let alone date, if I couldn’t just get it together and be normal?
I asked myself, What’s the point and – is it even worth it?
“…I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”
Yea. It is.
Because even when I don’t see a way, God makes rivers in deserts.
He is faithful and full of mercy. He is God of the Impossible. Any dream I have, He can make happen. And though that doesn’t mean that every thing I want in life will necessarily happen right away, or in the way I might expect, or even at all – it means that I can put my faith, worries, doubts and fears into His hands. And He will make a way in this wilderness.
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Maybe you’re like: okay but, now what? What if it all still feels impossible?
Remember that it is not. You are not the one in control here. You are only capable of doing so much and yes, limitations still exist. It’s tempting to stay in that place of feeling like all hope is lost in a situation. Like, there is no way that things could ever change or improve. This, is it.
But is it true? Is what you’ve been saying to yourself all along: I’ll never change, or life is always going to be this way – is that really truth?
I don’t think so. But trust me when I say, I get it – it certainly can start to feel that way.
Perhaps this is the point at which we take a good, hard look at ourselves and see ourselves for who and what we truly are. Human. Finite. Ignorant of many things. Wrong about many others. Fallible. Mortal. Incapable of knowing what tomorrow holds.
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
See, I am doing a new thing! now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
Take heart, friends. God is God of the impossible. Is there anything too hard for Him?