The Inevitability of Failure

Inevitability of Failure

“Oh, failure. How I despise thee…and yet.”

– Leighann Blackwood

I was thinking about 18-year old Leighann the other day – and failure. I can’t say that I remember every feeling or thought that I might have gone through then, but I can imagine there were many. It’s amazing though, to see how far I’ve come, as a person. A woman. A Christian. I keep journals, I always have. But I’m not always consistent enough to continue writing in them. That’s kind of the point of a journal though, right? Anyway, I have always kept a journal (or at some points journals) nearby, just in case I needed to jot down any thoughts, ideas or just ramblings I needed to get off my chest. Recently, I was re-reading one of my old entries, which is something I do every few months. I do this as a way of looking back at old Leighann to see how far (or perhaps how not-so-far) present-day Leighann has come from that point. I do the same with this blog actually. Truthfully, looking back at my writings and re-reading them gives me perspective, and new insight.

I marvel at the ways God has worked in – and continues to shape – my life. I marvel at the ways that I continue to doubt Him in my life. And the ways in which I doubt my own abilities, too.

Eleanor Roosevelt once said, “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” I guess that means I need to stop giving so many people – including myself sometimes – my consent.

Self-doubt is a powerful thing. It’s caused me a lot of fear and, in turn, missed opportunities. Reading through my journals or past blog entries, it’s clear to me that self-doubt has a presence in my life that I would honestly rather not acknowledge or leave room for. The truth is, my self-doubt is rooted in a paralyzing fear of failure and disappointment.

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I mean, who actually likes failure?

Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
– Jack Canfield
Failure should be our teacher, not our undertaker. Failure is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. Failure is something we can avoid only by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing.
– Denis Waitley
There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.
– Paulo Coelho

These guys didn’t necessarily enjoy failure per se, but they seemed to have a pretty good grasp on the concept that failure is not an ending. It is just a means to one.

The truth: failure is inevitable, and perseverance is key.

Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must beleive and not doubt. Because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.
James 1:4-6 (NIV)
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Leighann

Twenty-something, lover of Jesus. I like animals (esp. dogs), Fun-Fetti cupcakes and yoga. I love God and do my best to love others. I hate too-warm weather and socks that fall into your shoes when you walk. I'm a huge fan of Christian rap and cold, sunny days.

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  • Ludecea Nunis

    Thank you Leighann!

    This is something that I struggle with continuously and I mean life is a journey so yes, it is inevitable. I think that accepting our failures is what makes us stronger and better people. Its a matter of perspective.

    Thank you again for all your entries, I love reading them. YOU ARE AMAZING!

    • Leighann

      Leighann

      Yeah it’s true, disappointments suck, but oftentimes I have to say that I find that they make the successes only that much better. YOU’RE amazing, my friend – thanks so much for reading!

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